Think twice

It's a Friday, and I was talking to her on the phone..
We suddenly talked about my past..
I wana tell her..

"I told my past giggling halfway because I feel
disappointed & ashamed of myself..
I held back because I don't have the guts to tell you
everything..
But I chose to text you..
In the end I still have to be honest with you..
I'm not as good as what you think I am..
I couldn't forgive myself for not being honest
if I have to be with you..
I hate myself for what I've done..
And now that you've known it..
I think you should think twice..
Stay away from me before it's too late for you..
I'm scared I'll have to hate myself again if I hurt you.."

Maybe this is good for you and me..
Maybe being together is not gonna suit us..

Damn that dude JH..