The smell of a Free Saturday Morning

Yo! This is what I call a morning worth enjoying =) lol. I just got back from opening ceremony of Co-curricular activities. Just finished a relaxed bath which I've not been able to enjoy since the start of the term. @@ Anyway, just posting it as a remembrance of this day that I should feel happy about. Hurray! haha..

I'm sorry suet, thank u for ur acceptance

Dear suet,

I'm sorry for the hard feeling I've put you through,
I'm sorry for the selfish way I was.
But I mean it when I told you
to draw distance from me
Cause' I do not want you to get hurted by me.
If the end of everything was a result
that you get hurted by me,
I'd rather choose to make you turn away from me even now.
I hope you understand.
And I hope you'd forgive me..
Thank you for your love that chose to accept me,
love that comforts me so well,
to feel that I could be different & to do better

If it was an end to our relationship just now,
all that I could remember were the moments when you were
there for me when I needed comfort & encouragement.
And I was thinking to myself how badly I'd
be missing the time I used to sing to you.
The time we had watching movies together.
I'm writing this to tell you
how attached am I to you now
how you came struck me on my mind
the fear that I was gonna lose you..
how I'm dependent on your laughters & smiles

with love,
Timothy

Think twice

It's a Friday, and I was talking to her on the phone..
We suddenly talked about my past..
I wana tell her..

"I told my past giggling halfway because I feel
disappointed & ashamed of myself..
I held back because I don't have the guts to tell you
everything..
But I chose to text you..
In the end I still have to be honest with you..
I'm not as good as what you think I am..
I couldn't forgive myself for not being honest
if I have to be with you..
I hate myself for what I've done..
And now that you've known it..
I think you should think twice..
Stay away from me before it's too late for you..
I'm scared I'll have to hate myself again if I hurt you.."

Maybe this is good for you and me..
Maybe being together is not gonna suit us..

Damn that dude JH..

Stepping out

I've been guessing so hard, to try to have an idea of what
she's thinking..
Everytime I draw myself near her, she'd accept me..
But thing doesn't last long..
Before this situation could maintain any longer..
She'd start to silent
All that I could reason with myself was that she's busy..
Despite the time when I was really down & hoping to hear
at least a word as simple as "good night" or better still, "cheer up"..
*sigh*
I'm sorry to say I don't understand what you're thinking..
I've been trying to look up for a time where you'd really comfort me
when I need you..

But Suet was the one turn up to hear me out,
& been there for me..
This is the simplest thing I'm seeking for..
A person who really draw close to me & would listen to me..
The comforting touch on my heart that gives me courage & support..
Be it that she doesn't know how to console,
but by just listening, she's done more than enough..
I'm longing for a person I could show her my world..
Taking stroll with her by park
Delighting in simple dinner with her..
Being myself by her side..
I haven't do much for you Suet,
But I'm planning to do something for you.. (",)